I can't believe this is still here ... And you are all still here ... for the most part.

Anyway, I got a lot of makin up to do. At least there's new art in the works!

Soon as I find me a scanner

im not a hermit anymore!! keep on the lookout for new stuff, i have LOTS

im still being a hermit

but i feel better

despite having sprained my wrist and bruised my tailbone

but im going home on monday

you can all suck my dick (it's pink and buzzes!! haha)

except elise, savvii, and the select other few of u i know actually give a crap

how are you guys?

whats been up with me lately? you may ask

i've been reading party monster, cool book. satisfies my whole fascination with rise and fall of drugs and their users type thing.
i made friends with a girl named abbe. jewish lesbian from new york with the cutest sweetest prettiest face ever!! i might be a little in love, but i might not. cuz for some reason i dont like being around her with other people, i just like being around her with her.

i've been really quiet and introspective recently, not so much talking to anyone, about myself, but more about other people. i dont know why and it's just a little annoying. i hate when i'm hanging out with people and everyone else laughs long and hard at some joke or something i say for minutes, and i bark out a short sardonic little pathetic chuckle, and thats it, and then everyone looks at me weird for being so quiet.

school's going rather splendidly. i got an a on my seven page art midterm, where i had to answer questions about pollock, warhol, basquiat, lynch, walker and some photographer i dont even know.

i really miss my art, but ever since i started my writing class ... nothing's been coming out of me really. nothing at all, like not even a try. i need to take a class again i think.

and i miss dave with growing desperation, though i know every minute that we are apart makes this whole situation more treacherous. which is funny, because as i say this, i feel like we are doing really well these days. he misses me ever so much, and i am not entirely positive why. sometimes he says the most puzzling things, but i do not question them, i am too busy basking in the joys of noncommittal affection.

yes well, i'm quite through. good night.

i feel like everything i do these days is by accident ...

except losing my mind on weekends, in dark rooms with loud music and sweaty bodies.

i just got the new system of a down cd, it is sweeeet.

um ... i deleted everything cuz i had 60 bazillion devs and ... well frankly i value my sleep very very much these days.

yah so ... im gonna have to request that everyone feel better than i do these days
cuz i love you and care about you and i dont want you to feel bad.

i missed my compy